Thursday, August 10, 2006

family

So, my son and his girlfriend are in town visiting for a few days AND my daughter is on her way here as we speak. So, I am going to have a house full of happiness for the next couple of days. It is so awesome having all my kids here right now. It's strange being the mother of an adult son. Today he got really sunburned and we got some lotion for the burn. As a parent my first instinct was to administer aid to my child. But, he is a grown man and his "lady friend" (his smarmy term not mine) is here with him. So, fortunately I thought about it before I started to do it and handed him the lotion and let her take care of it. I'm sure it would have seemed uber-ooky if I had started to do it! She would have thought I was some sort of freak. While they were here they have gotten my youngest son started on World of Warcraft.... we've been calling it internet crack and he is HOOKED! I took off a few days from work to enjoy their company and today, right when they got home from the water park the electricity went off. I have had a history of not being very responsible when it comes to remembering to pay stuff. So, after checking fuses... I was certain that I had forgotten to pay the bill. I was freaking out thinking how embarassed I was going to be to have my son's girlfriend here and the electricity got shut off. Thats the way to make a GREAT impression. Fortunately it was a full power outage for the whole block and not me being an idiot and we are home with full power and awesome air conditioning.

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posted by fear.of.landing @ 8/10/2006 1 comments

Friday, August 04, 2006

That moment

Yesterday, I encountered that moment. The one where you take a stand for what you deeply believe or you cave in to pressure. And I folded like oragami. Well, not like oragami because that would have yielded something beautiful and complex. I was more like a crumpled wad of paper that is about to become a spit ball for "the man". I remember being young and idealistic, arguing about what is "right" and looking up to those that stood for it and being disdainful of those who didn't. What's worse is that the surrender of my spirit caused me about 3 hours extra of work that I had to bring home to do, so it wasn't just a quick decision and I got to be done with it. No, I got to wallow in my choice for 3 solid hours clicking away on my laptop while my family enjoyed their evening and I get to go into work a few minutes early to save the changes on my work. Because, not only did I cave, but I am too much of a coward to let an employee know that I did it. I am sure she will figure it out eventually and I will have to own it but a part of me hopes she doesn't. This is why I have always avoided being the boss, I don't want to be the person where the buck stops but I was lured into the position with the idea of more money so here I am bought and paid for. At least now I know that the next time I have to fold it will be easier because the crease lines are already ingrained in me from this time. I am thinking, as this project is heading to the printer this morning, that I hope that "the man" uses some mouthwash before he launches me as a spitwad cause I don't want to be covered in foul breath stench on top of everything else.

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posted by fear.of.landing @ 8/04/2006 1 comments